celebration day

 I grew up with carnival. it was part of my life. every year I came back to Cologne. just to celebrate the end of the winter and the beginning of a new season. there is nothing to celebrate anymore

once upon a time – the street

for years, the factory has set the rhythm of life here on the street. all the time I knew the street it was 6’clock, 14’clock and 22’clock. the street was packed then. going to work or coming out. for me the street became my lifeline, while I was working in the factory. the street gave me everything I needed; breakfast, lunch or a couple of beer’s at night

once upon a time – the idea

the idea was simple. very simple and cristal clear. 1979 – we were young and full of energy. people couldn’t find places to stay. the houses were left empty by the houseowners. so we take the house, clean them and give them to the people. the houses belong to the people, was the idea. and we were not alone. we became part of an international movement

berlin – cologne

time to go. crossing the country side. there are plenty things to discover. Germany by train is something. going back to Cologne is just great for this moments. best is to cross the Rhein River at the end of the journey. in Cologne. but be sure, you’ll never in time!

Bärbelchen’s dreams

when I was young #2

where the demons stay

when I was young

oenothera biennis – living for one night

live in the box

for years they have been there. nobody paid any attention. all this little boxes were just there, for years. now I don’t understand, why nobody had the idea to open them over all this years. I found the whole family life over the last century here. finally one question remained, who is that guy in my grandmothers jewellery box

the christmass-tree


„Alle Jahre wieder…..”

Every year again
Comes the Christ
Child Down to earth
Where we humans are.

every year Hilde and Nicole are preparing their christmass tree. later on Nicole plays the song on her flute. years ago Hilde had prepaired little presents for everyone,now Nicole takes over this responsbility

Hilde – the ritual

there was an anual ritual in Hilde’s garden. the apple tree. Hilde loved her apple tree. since I was young this tree has been there. I used to climb in that tree to collect the apples for her. now this apple tree is the last remaining tree in Hilde’s garden.  year by year it has more fruits than the year before. Hilde still collected the apples every year

Hilde – the journey

some weeks ago Hilde took us for a journey into the past. she found the old photo albums . since then Hilde is diving through the pictures. there are some funny ones of Franz and the „little kids“.  she found pictures of her 50th birthday, nearly 40years ago. some photos of uncle Herbert appeared, just after he married. nobody of us would have remembered him

Hilde – the apple pie

autumn was a paradise. we were kids and every autum was a competition in our family. who’s making the best apple pie. everday apple pie for us. today there is no more competition since 20 years. Hilde liked to make apple pie in autumn



we know each other now for years. we grow up together. my sister Nicole. she managed everything at home for Hilde. now she’s alone in the house

religion – the ceremony

they started in the total darkness. the priest had to use a flashlight to read. at 4.ooh in the morning they started to light the fire and brought the candle into the dark church. at 8.00h the priest started with the third liturgy

strong Hilde

 Hilde slept for four days in the hospital. today she woke up and started again. strong Hilde

Hilde’s playtime

this is new. Hilde discovered the wooden blocks from our childhood to play with. she likes to organize the colours. the crystal clear sound of the blocks is more entertaining. until the late afternoon tea

Hilde’s walk

every afternoon Hilde used to walk around the quarter. still she knows all the houses and the stories behind the gates. it was here area over all the years

cologne – a day in the city

pffh. for weeks I tried to avoid this public madness in black, red and gold. just left home in the early morning hours. everybody became a football coach in black, red and gold. now it is over. finally. this collective dream for six weeks is finished. nothing changed

Hilde’s toys

we used to play a  lot with this toys over the years, when we were young and constructed  our own futuristic world with this toys. Wilma found them and she introduced the toys to Hilde. Hilde is busy now to organize and construct her fancy new world. she has fun

Hildes garden

the garden is her paradise. since I was young Hilde spent every free minute in her garden. she planted potatoes, vegetables and fruits. even I had a piece of garden to  grew salads. I was allowed to sell the salad. till now in her age of 88 Hilde still likes to go into her garden. she’s still proud of her plants

Hilde’s forest

for sure this is Hildes forest. everyday she is going for a walk into the forest. since years. believe me, over all the years she knows every single tree. it is her forest

Hilde’s hats

Hilde loves hats, for sure. maybe because her mother was working as a milliner. she has plenty of hats and she loves all of them. still she doesn’t like to leave the house without a hat